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My Anxiety is new to me,
She's mine... exclusively.
More of a three-way-really...
With my long term lover by the side of me. 
Its sounds like monogamy,
But he's not a fan.
Neither am I!
She's greedy and needy, 
Feeding on the happy times dear to me. 
Selfish,
Foolish,
But I keep her by the side of me. 
Unfortunately.

If my anxiety was a sound it would be this... 
-sigh-

The pain I feel inside, as I hear her pester me,
over and over. 

Till. I just I fade away... 
Guided by the gentle hum of a white wine. 

- that's my fault. I like to think its her kryptonite. 

In a mixed up fantasy kind of way... 

But seriously, do you know know how many times.
I've cried.
Myself to sleep at night
Because I'm convinced I'm dying, thanks to her. 

How many beautiful memories turned black from her constant meander over old thoughts.

She speaks to me. A lot. 
She tells me... I'm not worthy. I'm not enough. 

 I should worry about future because I might not last long. 
Do you know how many times... I've pushed the people that mean the most to me... so far off a cliff... metaphorically... because she can't fuck off and leave me alone! 

She sets me up to fall. 
Because the pain I feel from badly placed comments at family dinner tables... is sweet to her. 
Like a Class A... she's addicted to my failure. 

But today, I've made a standing. 
She can't win this war that we're in. 
Because in reality, I'm the only one fighting. 
The path to recovery is still unknown to me. 
I don't know how I got in this so my god, do I know how to get out this.

My Anxiety is controlling me. 
But will soon be it will be controlled by me. Hopefully.

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